love is a beautiful thing.

sometimes it doesnt have to be so hard.
sometimes things are just surface deep.
you dun always need to fight it.

sometimes she just wants u there.
sometimes she just needs u to know.
you dun always have to argue.

sometimes there's only the need to agree.
sometimes there's only the need to listen.
you dun always have to problematise.

most of the time u need to understand.
most of the time u need to accept.
you just need to love and trust.

understand that she loves.
accept that she's there.
know that she trusts.
be reassured that she's trying to understand and accept.
have faith. dun doubt. you know her better.

calm down, love is a beautiful thing.
it might poke u a bit but it's all worth it.
u cant be securely truly in love unless u believe so.
work on it. dun shut the other out.
let them in.

i love you sayang. i noe.

the results

yay!! *dancearound* i am consistently improving i guess.. i am happy. although some modules are one grade lower than i expected but well i did improve.. so yay!! thanks to the good influences and ayang for saving me from falling at the most critical moment.. and pat on the back for me for choosing to be as less distracted as i could.

alhamdulillah. amin.

i love you.

suatu hari (anak-anak seni)

Suatu hari, di Choa Chu Kang Loop, Faizal dan Reeza sedang duduk bersembang membuang masa. Tiba-tiba, mereka rasa pelik. Dunia seolah-olah berputar. Tanpa disedari, mereka berdua perasan bahawa mereka ada telinga hijau yang tumbuh di kepala. Mereka pun memanggil kawan-kawan untuk menyiasat.


"Apa masalahnya?" Wany bertanya. "Saya tidak nampak apa-apa kelainan pun...," katanya lagi.


"Alamak, kau ni Wany, tak nampak ke telinga yang menghijau tu? Ish, ish, ish," teriak Husni yang hensem nak mampos.


Lin menoleh ke arah Husni. Kerana dia sungguh baik hati, dia tidak sampai hati memberitahu Husni bahawa mukanya macam kucing kurap. Tetapi, Lin redha. Dia tahu bahawa jika Husni sabar seperti Lin, dia boleh jadi lawar gila (mcm Lin). Untuk menjadi lawar giler mcm Lin, awak harus bersenam setiap Lin, awak harus bersenam setiap pagi dan berdoa kepada Allah swt agar memperelokkan lagi rupanya.


Meeting seterusnya di Pontian, Johor tapi Husni tak boleh pergi sebab dia Mat Kental-istiwa (orang tu passport mati), padan muka. Husni juga tak tahu malu sebab dia cam-whore.
Ibnur pun datang masuk campur. Ibnur ketawa lalu berkata kepada Husni, Lin, Fatimah dan Liza. "Kenapa you all ada telinga hijau juga?!!"


Tiba-tiba 'fairy Maly' muncul di hadapan mereka semua. Dia menghayunkan tongkat saktinya lalu berkata..."Hari ini adalah Hari Telinga Hijau! Sesiapa yang mempunyai telinga Hijau akan dipelihara oleh 'fairy Maly'.


Lalu tertimbulnya katak yang digulai dalam tempurung berteriak kepada 'Fairy Maly'." You are my saviour!" Namun, apabila terlihatnya siapa sebenarnya 'Fairy Maly', terkucilnya katak bertelinga hijau lalu dibakar hidup-hidup atas panggang yang terbakar. Di sebalik itu, datangnya Zahdan, hensem namun kental, sesat terlepas di tempat yang aneh ini. (Al-Kisah. 22-31 Fairus)


Zahdan selamatkan katak itu daripada terus dibakar. Lalu dikebumikan katak itu dengan sempurna. Aliff pun berkata, "Baik hati eh ko, Zahdan."
"Aku kan lembut orangnya... tak sampai hati aku binatang diperlakukan sedemikian." Tiba-tiba....


"Tidak!!!!!!" Semua yang hadir terperanjat lalu menoleh ke arah suara yang memecahkan keheningan malam.
"Katak aku! Kenapa boleh jadi begini? Penat-penat aku tangkap. Macam mana boleh hangus? Tidak oh tidak tidak tidak," jerit Kamal kental yang tetiba muncul ibarat keluang man.
"Siapa yang bertanggungjawab? Kau Zahdan?" Kamal mula menggertak. Sebaik sahaja Kamal melangkah setapak, Zahdan pun pengsan. "Siapa???" Tiba-tiba...


Sebuah tikus mondok yang besar lagi dahsyat sungguh menggerikan meloncat keluar dari semak samun di tepi longkang sebenar kandang kerbau di tepi jalan dan menerkam ke arah katak hijau yang buntal itu!
"Oi!" jerit katak buntal itu. "Kau nak makan aku kenapa?" Aku kan Faizal... Aku tahulah aku ada telinga hijau, ini semua gara-gara Fareeza ah! Dia gigit aku, terus jadi katak... *&^^$^ punye tikus!" Maka....


Terakhirnya kisah maka telah ketahuinya watak-watak yang berbahaya serta malang makan innahillah.


Dan dalam segala ceritera termaktub azimat purbawara merdeka. Demi cinta, demi negara, demi kesempurnaan (Kamal) demi kemajuan bangsa tercinta. Alhamdulillah dan terima kasih kepada semua.


-tamat-

If anyone's wondering wat all that was about.. well.. it was actually the outcome of the story written by the ppl who came for Faizal & Reeza's happening-gedegak bbq.. the merepek parts are mostly by Fairuz. haha..entah apa "dibakar atas panggang yang terbakar"? anyway it is not editted minus the censorship of one word. Well, me and faizal wud like to thank everyone who turned up and made it happening. for those who didnt.. ur loss.. i hope everyone did enjoy themselves and got the opportunity to relax (even though some ppl talked business) i also hope ppl had enuff to eat.. and that u noe new ppl or get updated about friends u hadnt met for a long time.. thanks again.. to Zahdan.. do watch deal or no deal k? hehehe.. thank u sooooo much.. it was very nice. for pictures.. pls visit my darling's blog soon.. he'll upload the pictures as soon as he gets rid of his penyakit Malas k? hehe kidding.. he'll do it soon.. =) yay!!

ps: spelling errors and all.. are not editted.

i am sooo in lurveeeeee.

hi everybody!
i just want to post this coz i need to get this off my chest..... *grinz*
*smilez* *rolls*
i just want to shout out that....that.......that..............that I LURVE FAIZAL RAWI!!!!

hes smart, charming, cute nak mampus, hensem tak seberapa tapi dier punye dimples bila dia senyum.....uuuuummmmmpphhhhhh! boleh PENGSAN u! he makes me laugh like a hyena all the time *hick hick hickk* and OH MY GODDD...have you seen his cute hot as*?????????!!!

*faints*

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...
....
.....

*wakes up*
*sigh*
sometimes i wonder how i get so lucky...
to be with someone who understands me and layans ALL my nonsense like when i action cute, ask for so much attention and when i always eksyen merajuk.
*sigh*
im such a lucky girl. plus he takes me around on his manly bike all over singapore and we have such a romantic time together coz he is SO ROMANTIC!!!!! tak leh ARNGKARTS you! we do stuff so spontaneously. *GOSH* *blushes* *sighs* he always sweeps me off my feet. :)

i (s)lurp you ayang!

ps: this shiok sendiri entry (which is mostly true although it doesnt sound like me) is written by si dia tu. *hehe*

happy happy happy

i fell asleep.
i woke up.
my heart aches for you.
i miss you.
i love this feeling.
i hate this feeling too.
but i love you...so much.

things did go rather fast. we dun deny it. but we're happy. very happy. like i always say. sometimes love comes to you when you least expect it. so for those of you who have fallen out of love and think u shouldnt love anymore... slap yourself shake your head and smile. hehe.. ok dun slap yourself. just pull yourself together. do something crazy coz love doesnt wait for you all the time. just as you shouldnt wait for love. i used to be one of those who thought i could never love again after the last one. but hell.. i was wrong. i am in love. there are things wrong in the relationship. but somehow we made it right. i think coz we are honest to each other about it and we're BOTH trying hard to adapt to each other's ways and make things right. but i am very sure that we r both loving with the fullest of our hearts. i am just not afraid. it's a good feeling.

anyway my laptop's down.. which sucks. something's wrong with the dvd drive that affects the power of the laptop or sumtin like that. shall send it for service on monday or asap. and i am home early on a saturday. i fell asleep reading a book. then i woke up it was only 8+ and i miss him so much. grr.. but im seeing him tmr.. yay! but i think it's for awhile je.. oh well.. absence is good sumtimes..

oh yah.. congrats adik .. SP takraw team is champion at NUS Sepak Takraw Team Championship!!! weehoo...

rama-rama terbang bebas.
bunga kembang harum.
bulan mengambang terang.
semuanya indah dan sempurna buat kita.
namun kaki masih menjejak bumi.

i am very happy. be happy for me.

i am at a stage where everything seems to be fine for me.
ok not everything. minus the fact i'm broke every other things are going great for me.
i didn't get here easily.

i got here after going through so much pain (physically, mentally and emotionally).
i got here after facing a lot of challenges.
i got here after making a lot of tough decisions.
i got here after i decided that i should take the risk.
i got here after i question myself, my life and my relationships with people.
i got here after i understand about myself, my life and my relationship.
i got here especially because i realise i was not happy and fulfilled.
i got here because i chose to be here.
i got here because i think it's time i get here for myself.

i noe i have hurt people along the way. i am sorry that people got hurt. but i dun regret being where i am now. i've learned what i needed to learn and i just have to keep moving forward. i was the kind that wanted to be selfless and be happy just coz the people around me were happy. and just kept compromising my own happiness. well.. newsflash.. sometimes u have to be happy urself too.. i noe that it may appear that u r happy coz u make someone happy.. i feel that.. i loved that feeling.. but now i noe what being happy really feels like.. i mean being happy because u made URself happy.. u noe? i guess there's always a need to be a lil selfish. just a lil.

and then now i'm here.

i am where my choices matter.
i am where i am heard.
i am where i am treasured.
i am where my compromise is reciprocated.
i am where negotiation is done rationally.
i am where someone understands and try to understand more.
i am where someone's there to adapt to me just like i adapt to him.
i am where someone's patient enough to listen and explain things to me.
i am where i am loved.

i shouldn't look back. i had a past. i've learned from it. i acknowledge it. i appreciate it. i'll remember it. but i wun regret it.

i just love where i am right now. i feel free. i am not pretending anymore. i'm confident of myself. i just feel light. (literally also since i lost weight hehe..)

i love you sayang. thank you... for being with me throughout the toughest phase of my journey here. and now for being here to go through another journey. =.)

cinta indah & cabar

sekiranya segalanya indah
itu bukan cinta
sekiranya segalanya mudah
itu bukan cinta
sekiranya segalanya mencabar
mungkin itu cinta
sekiranya segalanya sukar
mungkin itu cinta

namun sekiranya hanya ingin yang indah

jangan bercinta

namun sekiranya hanya ingin yang mudah

jangan bercinta

tapi sekiranya terima cabaran

cintalah sepenuh hati

tapi sekiranya menghadapi kesukaran

cintalah sepenuh jiwa

siapa yang kata cinta itu mudah dan indah sahaja?
siapa yang kata cinta tidak ada cabaran dan kesukaran?
cabaran dan kesukaran membawa kemudahan dan keindahan kelak.
semakin mencabar semakin sukar
kian mudah dan kian indah
cinta.

cinta sejati membenarkan cabaran menjadi indah

cinta sejati membuat kesukaran menjadi mudah

tapi cinta sejati juga perlu pengorbanan, kesabaran.

cinta sejati cinta sepenuhnya.

jangan pernah takut bercinta.
jangan pernah kecewa ketika gagalnya cinta.
bukalah hati. bukalah jiwa.
tapi bukalah mata dan bukalah telinga.

kegagalan tidak semestinya ketiadaan.

cinta sentiasa ada usaha yang kurang.

sabar menanti sabar mencari.

kadang tiada dicari cinta menanti.

cinta tidak datang hanya sekali
kita dibenarkan gagal.
kita dibenarkan membuat kesilapan.
tapi jangan mengesali.
cinta tidak datang hanya sekali.

Meet MiniMat!

we adopted our MiniMat!





this was us at Vivocity punyer rooftop tu.. macam budak-budak.. we opened right after we bought it.. haha.. exciting.. oh yah ayang had the whistle sweet in his mouth if u wondering wat that was.. i insisted on buying that because i cant whistle.. haha..




MiniMat even had its first accident! thanks to ayang.. haha.. a lot of ppl were looking and staring at us .. but i bet they were just jealous.. muahahahaha.. i think we did hit a few "pedestrians" haha..



well.. it's actually very fun.. we played at the multi-storey carpark after that.. turun naik ramp some more..



i think ayang has become more childish... thanks to yours truly.. haha.. but i like it.. i mean children are happy people most of the time.. =) that's why im always happy.. coz im always young at heart.. =.) now we are happy together.. hehe

voting for adik

adik was great.. minus the extremely exaggerated negative comment by one judge.. tak sangka adik aku ni cool jugak... improving alot.. haha.. and apparently many girls think he's handsome, hot, cute and all those. hehe..

here's the format for voting:

UNDI (space) M4

Then send to 73388.

Do vote and ask all ur friends, family, neighbours, colleagues, sister's friends, brother's friends, friends' cuzins dan yang sewaktu dengannya untuk vote k? terima kasih byk byk skali lagi...

undilah

to all my friends and family. do watch anugerah tonight at 8.30pm on suria and vote for Elhazeeq Ul Haq. Code: M4. Thank you so much. Every vote is greatly appreciated by me, my family and Elhazeeq.

psst. there's never enough vote. if you guys dun watch pun check out this site later tonite or tomorrow morning to find out how to vote coz it will be a whole week of voting. :) K? thank you soooo.. much.

GOOD LUCK ADIK!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!

whole day effort for the boy

So we were at anugerah on labour day to catch adik.. stylo kan? designed by him and her for each other.

Here's the star looking lethargic. cian dia.. i love u adik.. well done.. i think my brother is hot amongst his friends..

well since adik got thru to top 24 .. me and sayang have been working hard to promote and support adik..

Maceh sayang for all the help.. (nampak macam tiup belon haha)

and yeah im blogging about my sayang too.. haha.. rite this moment no one can pull me to any lower bottom. i'm happy. be happy for me.

psst. i bet my rating's going up.

after exam party

hey guess what.. exams over.. yeahooo... here's wat we did to celebrate (spontaneously)..



we bought 3 bottles of drinks (no plain water), salad, 2 croissant breads, a bunch of bananas, a big pack of cheesels, a can of chilli tuna.


Here's the first chef preparing tuna, croissan'wich. (vege washed with 7up)

Well then the gorgeous chef prepared the plain tuna croissan'wich (without vege)

Took the first bite coz she was starving.. and trying not to drip the oil on her clothes.

He took his first bite. err.. just overacting coz he wasnt starving as much.. haha.. but it was a nice meal.

After finishing our croissanwich.. our first chef came up with the salad wrap. yummy..

However, being the more creative one.. the gorgeous chef came up with her own creation of cheezy tuna. it's nice.. bitesize some more..

After the meal.. we took a walk on the beach..


Sat by the sea and just enjoy each other's presence and the beautiful scenery..(macam soalnya siapa)

Well we sat and eat cheesels some more actually.. Anyway.. we just talked and get to noe each other again.. and he sang beautifully. (so jiwang...)

Then as it gets dark..and stars emerged one by one.. reflecting the moonlight brightly.. we walked some more.. and stopped to carve our names on the sand..

Then we went for dessert.. yes at macs with bananas.. we had 4 bananas with one sundae.. perfect.. oh and we tried to trip some people with the banana peels.. haha.. and try to hide evidence from the mac employees..

well..ant bites. sandy feet. sticky skin. aching arms. but it was all worth it. it was a perfect day. a perfect nite. i heart you.

"kalau u toilet bowl. i toilet seat. so we can go through shit together."

go adik go

adik got through!!! yes!! i love adik.. i am happy for him altho it means another "star" at home. but i'll support him all the way. campaigning and voting for him all the way. anyway my dearest friends do vote as much as you guys can ok? love my friends for supporting and being there for me all these while .. i noe who my brother's "loyal fanz" will be..haha.. anyway it's ELHAZEEQ UL HAQ or ajeek for short.. hehe.. thank u banyak2 in advance for all the support.. next appearance will be on 8 May 2007, 8.30@ Suria. watch to get his voting number k? and pls help spread the word... terima kasih daun keladi.

so one more paper tmr at 2.30-4.30pm. then freedom.. tinggal nak campaign, back to tarian and some other pbm stuff.. and well now it's when i can really start fresh with no worries. i just hope ppl involved will be happy. :)

You, i love you.