not-so-good day

i.feel.numb.

one more essay to go.

super hot. rain. sunshine. rain. sunshine. drizzle. super hot. damn heavy rain.

wasted half a day for tomorrow.

another fight. he dun get it. neither do i?

smilies.

he's there. but he's not there.

i.feel.numb.

give me strength.

a big THANK YOU!!

yay! arts fest is over and it was a good perf. better than wat i expected and way better than wat some other ppl expected. especially for ilsa. i am so proud of the girls.. altho we were rushing with no practice of quick changing and had no idea how to wear the second costume.. and were dripping sweat all over, we pulled through and we looked pretty.. and we did well.. i love you girls.. muacks muacks. thank you for everything girls.. and faiz n koony you guys were great and thank you for bearing with all the waiting and all.. i think u guys were a great support for me.. and u guys were one of the greatest highlight of the dance.. (next to me.. muahahahaha)

and yes my dearest abg man.. we love you!!! thank you for assisting and understanding and guiding me and the girls and the guys. i noe it wasnt perfect but i noe that u wud be there to make sure everything was good.. thank you many many.






then to the era dancers who willingly come together to perform..altho u guys have other commitments.. thank you so much. i miss you guys but it was fun having u around.. to melly n bada n abg anuar who helped us change at the back.. and abg anuar for the photos.. and especially to abg ain who arranged for the costumes and helped with the programmes and name list and all.. terima kasih byk2..




to all the crew and cfa, and musicians thanks for ur time n effort.


and special thanks to kamal and ana for helping us out last minute. and suzi for food delivery. and "Abg "Najib thank u for always being there to transport the girls and our stuffs. Ruzaini thank u for taking our pictures.


lastly.. thank you all audience who came and supported us.. my friends, nj juniors, seniors from everywhere, and family.. n for those who took time off although they were busy or had other appointments but came down.. i hope u didnt regret.. any feedback would be good. and of course to my dearest nadhirah who kept screaming "kak reeza i love you".. here's a shoutout.. "i love u too!!" hehe.. oh yes those yang tak dapat datang but remembered to sms me their warm wishes thanks too..

this is nadhirah trying to do a fan dance.

i hope it was a good show. and i noe it wasnt perfect but it was great.

i really do appreciate everything and i hope you all will continue supporting ilsa tari. for now.. im back to being a student.. =)

you will when you believe.

brink of the bottle

i cant sleep. tmr i'll have a long day. gonna travel all the way to tampines n try make everytin work without the dancers. but newae thats not why i cant slp.

today i saw someone who puts a couple picture for the first time in a long time.. and somehow i dunno how i feel abt it. is this a relief? sense of happiness? or am i worried? or sad? but why? is it bcos im missing my "couplehood" or is it bcos i am je.. but well this couple of weeks have been very trying for me. mebbe im just at the brink of the bottle ready to pour out. cos ive been feeling sad.. ready to cry.. i just need a little poking.. and i'll spill. in fact sometimes it just trickle down the side when wind blows. God give me strength. i wanna be happy. how? it's ok. i'm ok. nvm. i'm fine. No.. We're ok. We're fine. and You're great. ppl shud be happy with wat they have not think that they will be happy with something they want but cannot get.

Maly.. i miss u lah gurl. i need to talk to ppl. just talk and talk and talk. u r like my talking partner. haha.. newae i noe maly's happy... hehehehe...

newae for those who won't be at tampines library on sat pls go down to jurong point (centrestage) to watch my adik sing at the Teen Star competition. good luck boy. altho i wun be there to watch u noe i love u n i'll be supporting u in spirit.. haha..

God.. give me the strength i need.

hectic

it has been a hectic week for me. dance practices and performances. assignments. meetings. diarrhea. yup. very tiring but im doin fine. i miss ppl. but im doin fine too. im goin thru quite an emotion rollercoaster ride this week or so.. but again im fine. sometimes when u cant talk about things u feel so frustrated but all u can do is smile. and just say nvm.. its ok. ive been sayin tt too much this week. but again im ok.

so i was also watching this video (which shall be a mystery and no it's not anything uncensored) again and again to make me smile and remember the good times. specifically the 1:18 to 1:40 of the video. hehe..

3 more assignments to go. and gosh.. 9 more days to arts fest.

anyway do take note that........

Gerak-geri Lenggok & Irama by NUS Ilsa Tari
ft. Teater Tari Era & Hafiz and Dzul Rabbiul Jalil (Musicians)

24th March 2007. 8pm. University Cultural Centre Courtyard. Admission Free.

It will be a fun night filled with both contemporary and traditional Malay dance performance as well as music. Do come down with your friends and your whole family or neighbours and colleagues.

newae it's been nice catching up with my secondary school friends. thanks yus for the coffee session. cant wait for the 06 Dragonz reunion. :)

it's ok. im ok. nvm. im fine.