Newton's first law of love

i came up with this today... i dunno if anyone had ever said it.. but here it goes..

True love is like Newton's first law, for every action there's equal and opposite reaction. meaning, for every amount of love you have for your partner, there's equal amount of love back for you from your partner.

I think it is true.. hence, don't argue who loves who more if you believe u're in a true relationship...

i love you as much as you love me, bee..

in drought

well it has been 11 days. therefore it means i have 3 days plus a morning before baby comes back.
so freaking hard to keep focus and feel mediocre-ly okay. absence does make your heart grow fondue... hehe (inside joke) but ya.. i miss him sooo tremendously. meanwhile i've learned to treasure the times we will have together.. coz i've been pondering about our relationship and this song (Ne-yo - Mad) is quite apt at describing our quarrels and stuff. but THAT is not a topic to air online. bottomline: i've learned from this 2-weekss apart experience..

so anyway, since I was supposed to be reading my Buru Tetralogy and do many other assignments and readings (which i doubt i will complete in this period of "term break") i might as well discuss a the weakness and meluat-ness of Annelies coz I could use her as a comparison to my situation..

Basically, all of us (4 ppl in the class so a bit misleading haha) thought that the portrayal of Annelies as cengeng-nak-mampos (forgive the language) was so unreal. She was so weak as a person, especially as an image of a woman, that she had to be bused (given anaesthetic) just because she missed a boy (Minke) and had fallen sooo sick. She couldnt talk, couldnt eat, couldnt anything! SO practically zombie-fied until Minke came to meet her. Even then she was quite a zombie still. And Dr. Martinet had to advise that Minke had to be her doctor and love her and blah blah blah. I thought she should have been categorized as a mental patient instead! but anyway.. maybe the reason behind this unreal portrayal is to create a reverse psychology reaction thingy or as a striking opposite of the other woman character or to show gender stereotypes and yada yada yada...

That's not my point anyway.. So after this 2-week drought of attention, i get that she is longing for Minke and that could affect her health and how only his presence could cure your heart.. But not to that extent.. So i think that is really an exaggeration not an "unreal" realism - as in it really happens but it is soo unreal.

Okay i know my argument is not concrete.. but it's because i'm blogging for the sake of it. i've been doing things for the sake of things lately.. hmm... i really have to get my priority and focus and energy and all those stuff back to doing my assignments and PILES and PILES of readings.

ok. that was random.

i love you bee.

anticipating drought

OMG! i accidentally posted this entry onto the Ilsa Tari's blog.. hahahaha.. sorry guys...
Well here it is:

Revision and readings have been VERY slow this semester. Unlike last semester, the lecturers are new and has a very different expectation from us compared to the "Standard" MS dept. So ya 3 modules of very very dense lectures and readings that even Max Lane got brain dead.

But anyway, I think it's just mental inertia....

On a totally new note... i'm counting down 10 days and then 14 days after that... Why must you go???? haiz... Two ways this is gonna go down...1. i'm gonna focus all my energy on school (readings and assignments and presentations) to distract myself 2. i'm just gonna mourn till he comes back. As it is... when i don't see him enough i feel so rimas and unsettled. And not enough is really a pathetically short time. it's like drought. love drought. well till have love lah. mebbe.. attention and pampering drought.

Well baby, you better leave and come back with all the energy to layan me everyday you are free. I mean it. EVERY minute. hehe.. love you, love. it's gonna be hard. i saw you this morning and you're still in singapore but i miss you lots!

p/s: faizal away means Maly is packed with lunch dates and maybe dinners. haha... and A'in keep your days available also. Lagi2 in April. OMG! 3 weeks will be worse!