Death that lives on

Have you ever thought of how it would feel if you lose the person you love..
not being able to hear his voice..
feel his touch..
see him smile..
smell his scent..
cuddle in his warmth..?
Especially if you have only been with him for such a short time..
but only been with him everyday of your life..

I have not felt a great lost yet in my life..

and I fear..
I fear how I would be if I lose you..
If you are no longer there..
I fear I am not strong enough to live on..
If you are no longer a reason to do so..
I fear I miss you too much..
If you are no longer touching..

I know if you are not here a great part of my life will be lost..
I know I'd long for you..
I know I'd always need you..
I know I'd always love you..
and you'd always love me too..
you'd be there when I need you..

Then I realise..
Our love is not superficial..
What we have is not only physical..
I have you in my heart, my soul, my mind..
I don't know if I could ever love this much again..

If I ever lose you..
I want you to know that I will miss you..
I will die inside..
But I will live on and take you with me in the remaining journey of my life.
That's how people live on forever..
I promise.

I'm not that afraid anymore..

ku berserah.

Live life like there's no tomorrow.

in the world

in a world where people are envious but cowardly, it is rather hard to believe things that you hear or see..

i actually believe in an anthropological method called interpretive research where you cannot just believe in what you see or hear people do or say.. you have to understand the context and where he/she come from.. different actions can mean different things.. therefore, i would like to assume that the anonymous person who left a disturbing comment on my last entry just made a mistaken interpretation or maybe even got the wrong person.. using this method i can deduce that he/she has made a comment based on a negative purpose of attempting to disrupt my happy life. i cannot make a conclusion of what this intention is because i do not know of the context. however, i know well enough to know that what was said was mere accusations.

in a world where many forces of vengeance and distraction exist, it is rather hard to stay focus on your own strength, your wants, your needs..

unless.. you have trust and faith in yourself, and the people that matter. also unless, you spend almost every waking hour with your want, your need, your strength... so i think this time the anonymous person has failed to shake me off track. i don't understand why people just have to leave such comments. if what you said were true then prove it. tell me in detail what is it that i should know about. coz i believe there's nuttin that i dunno of. and if your intention is good (the typical reason for intrusion) then tell me who you are and what is your basis for such accusations. but hey i guess you have nuttin.

in a world where lies are in abundance i believe in Him, myself and my love.

call me old-fashioned or conservative or wateva but i believe "sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua."

baHhhagia

new year.

new semester.

new modules.

same guy.

same love.

new love.

got everything we want.
tremendously happy with each other.
this seems like a positive start to the semester/year.
in school library with my love by my side doing things we do best.
(apparently not studying at least not now)

i simply love you too much. =)

baHhhagia.

Retirement

So we had our handover.... It was fun... 3 years.. and now.. study and love.



Thank you.