pondering bout the what ifs..

fairus jasmin suddenly smsed me yesterday.. and then hanan.. thus i concluded they were with each other when he smsed me.. and so i was right.. i think the only reason he smsed is to ask me a question about a certain someone.. and since my reply didnt get to him he used hanan's phone to sms me.. according to hanan he smsed me after lookin at friendster. answered my question of why he would wanna sms me out of the blue.. but he insisted that he just missed me (as a friend) coz i didnt turn up for the gathering.. in his exact words "missed having your nimbly cute fingers msg-ing me" hahahaha... that's new.. i really appreciate your effort fairus.. that's the first.. that somehow made a nice closing to my year..

and well i was just looking at my friends at friendster. and how diff their lives appear to be based on the pictures they have. while mine is simple and quite similar to wat it was but a bit more excitement.. while some others' have changed. while im rather happy, i wonder what theirs are like.. and then i start ed thinking of the what ifs..

1. what if i went to another jc to be with my friends instead of going to nj alone

then i would have been more active in nus now.. coz i have plenty of enthu friends but i wun be the good friend of the current pbm pres.. haha.. i love u maly..

2. what if i had stuck with a certain other group of friends

then i would not have been the Elfareeza many ppl know and somewhat liked.

3. what if i was in a relationship with any of them

then i would have been heartbroken and unhappy. and single and angry..

then i stopped my what ifs and just be grateful for the what i have(s).... coz i realise that i am where i am now.

back from kl

i just got back from kl in the afternoon. kinda tired.. i wasnt goin but my aunt didnt get my msg and she said i promised and all.. and made me go.. so yah i went altho had lotsa planning in my head for the handover ceremony but i made sure i settled some things before i left... so i was the babysitter for my cuz at kl lah.. oh yah ilsa rocks.. obviously we won for cfa nite.. haha.. i told them so.. and anyway dah enjoy2 celebrating our not so meaningful victory coz it was a given.. my aunt called cakap nak gi kul 6 pagi instead of 11 pagi.. from 11am to 6am is a lot of diff seh.. so altho i was tired the whole weak i had to keep it up lah..

my aunt fetched me from home super early..so then we got on the road at 6.40am from my place via 2nd link.. (my aunt asked me a good qn which i wun mention here which got me thinking but oh well i noe the answer) so anyway the road in jb was hell.. how stupid was it to have road works in such times when there's only two lanes.. and my other aunt (1) who went later in the morning said the causeway was an amazingly fast moving journey. guessed everybody expected bad traffic at causeway and caused one at 2nd link instead.. anyway we took about a freakin 11 + hours to get to KL.. fgs it's only kl.. and so when we reached there we were tired.. nasib baik my uncle broad portable dvd player.. entertain us n especially my dear cuz. dah sampai the hotel ppl buat hal.. so bingit.. not recommended service for sure.. not mentioning the hotel here.. so dah dinner.. (not so good pulak tu) then kiter cumer lepak kat bilik je.. penat sangat.. tapi main2 ngan my cuz jugak lah.. then dah kena paksa tido my cuz went to her room (adjoining mine n my other aunt (2)) .. but she cudnt sleep well.. terpekik2.. kesian.. so it was kinda sleepless nite.

second day kiter gi times square theme park.. exciting lah but super crowded i ended up taking for kid rides with my cuzin.. jaga dia lah.. but nice lah.. then balik kejap then kluar teman my other aunt (2) to makan and jln2.. i cudnt really find wat i wanted but bought a tank top for me n two tshirts for adik but he cudnt fit it coz he got larger shoulders lately.. then went back but i wasnt really satisfied shoppin pasal byk cool stuff and sales.. all the things i wanted tak sempat cari.. then balik kejap lagi.. ingat tanak makan skali my other aunt (1) ajak.. so we went but i didnt eat.. too tired.. we then bought my cuz toys to please her then went back.. dah mandi nak tido my cuz still hyper.. thankfully there was 'the incredibles' on disney channel.. so i managed to get her to sit down n watch.. she almost slept with me .. but then she wanted her mummy.. so then i slept.. so did she..

we checked out this morning lah.. patut gi singgah melaka tapi tak jadi.. then went all the way home.. bought adik bubble gums.. and well didnt really buy much.. overall it was fun.. my cuz was adorable and funny.. and entertaining cuma nak layan dia masa hyper super tiring ar.. but i love her.. oh well.. but i still not satisfied shopping.. and oh..then they came to my house to eat..


tmr results

genesis 3 day fun

3 days of fun and training .. We had loads of bonding n getting-to-noe sessions lagi-lagi bila tunggu pizza.. we even get to noe dinie! haha.. he was camera man for training pictures.. n ya it was like having 2 generations of abg man... i think their dynamics was a bit diff then when they were practicing at nj.. i think lah.. from wat i saw a few times.. mebbe diff atmosphere.. but he's cute lah.. esp masa kena tuduh murderer... haha..

so newae to those who missed it.. or the eliminated survivors.. u guys shud be regretting.. haha.. newae the above pic was a success after many-many takes.. maklumlah.. timer.. n it was before lunch on third day.. sanggup semua.. haha..

oh yah fri got cfa nite.. peranakan themed dance with collaboration of the CO.. oh well a bit frustrated but still fun with the gang..

so... soon... handover..... hehe.. exciting planning it...