Thursday, 14 February 2008

Part 1

Penghulu kampung telahpun dipilih setelah pilihanraya dijalankan semalam.

Hooray!!

Penghulu mendapat sokongan penduduk-penduduk Kampung Sangiparu seratus-peratus. Ternyatalah Penghulu kita ini dipercayai dan dikagumi semua.

Eh Penghulu ni mesti bagus. Dia tentu jujur ingin membantu kita, orang kita, masalah kita.

Seminggu selepas itu...


Penduduk-penduduk sekalian. Kita harus bangkit. Maju! Terus membangunkan diri. Jangan biarkan masyarakat Kampung Sangiparu ditinggalkan oleh masyarakat lain. Kita harus membantu diri sendiri. Jangan mengharapkan orang lain memberi bantuan. Orang kita bukanlah malas, lemah atau tak kuasa. Orang kita ada kejayaannya.

Eh eh.. Dah memang kita dari dulu kurang daripada yang lain apa. Memang tak adil. Macam mana kita nak maju. Patut kita ada bantuan yang lebih. Abeh si Penghulu ni bukan nak paham masalah kita. Nampak sah anjing pemerintah
.

Marilah semua. Kita bantu diri sendiri. Ikut arus kemodenan. Globalisasi. Kalau kita tak majukan diri, negara susah nak maju sepenuhnya.

Oh, sekarang dia kata kita yang susahkan negara ke? Kenapa kita mesti ikut semua orang? Siapa kata kita tak ikut kemodenan.
Ye lah. Apa sak? Aku ngan kumpulan aku sama per.. Dorang pun bukan semua orang kampung kita. Global lah tu. Mengarut ar dia ni.

Masalah kita bukan masalah adat atau tradisi. Kita harus sedar akan kelemahan dan terus maju. Kita boleh. Ye kita boleh. Percayalah.. Kita boleh!

Ah.. ye lah. Ni mesti ada yang tak kena. Propaganda lah. Macam kita ni tak tahu.

Oh please. I don't need to hear all these. I'm not like them. He's sooo not referring to me. However, those kampung people should sooo catch up with people like me. Gosh, so reeeemas. Ergh.


Eh. Kita boleh! Betul cakap penghulu. Apa korang tak nak dengar cakap dia ke? Kan korang jugak yang pilih dia. Kata dia jujur? Abeh dia cakap sikit aje dah tak percaya?


Alah, apa yang nak percaya? Sama je apa dia kata. Aku rasa dia ni dapat bayaran lebih lah. Sebab tu dia eksyen kisah. Lagipun aku tak paham lah.. ni semua politik. Aku tak suka lah politik politik ni. Takde kena mengena dengan aku pun. Aku ok aper. Aku leh cakap English. Aku skolah cukup. Aku rasa aku ok. Orang lain pun ada yang macam aku. Asal nak besar-besarkan keadaan kita ni? Menyampahlah..


Penduduk kampung mudah lupa?

Eh kita tak lupa lah. Kurang ajar sak. Dia tu siapa, nak cakap kita ni itulah inilah. Dia pun kirakan orang kampung kita apa. Apa yang dia ada yang bolehkan dia tunjuk-tunjuk aje? Apa yang dia paham? Dia tak paham kita ke? Asal dia spesyel?

oh..WE (not them) so need change. One biggest step - the melayUtopians.

Saturday, 26 January 2008

Death that lives on

Have you ever thought of how it would feel if you lose the person you love..
not being able to hear his voice..
feel his touch..
see him smile..
smell his scent..
cuddle in his warmth..?
Especially if you have only been with him for such a short time..
but only been with him everyday of your life..

I have not felt a great lost yet in my life..

and I fear..
I fear how I would be if I lose you..
If you are no longer there..
I fear I am not strong enough to live on..
If you are no longer a reason to do so..
I fear I miss you too much..
If you are no longer touching..

I know if you are not here a great part of my life will be lost..
I know I'd long for you..
I know I'd always need you..
I know I'd always love you..
and you'd always love me too..
you'd be there when I need you..

Then I realise..
Our love is not superficial..
What we have is not only physical..
I have you in my heart, my soul, my mind..
I don't know if I could ever love this much again..

If I ever lose you..
I want you to know that I will miss you..
I will die inside..
But I will live on and take you with me in the remaining journey of my life.
That's how people live on forever..
I promise.

I'm not that afraid anymore..

ku berserah.

Live life like there's no tomorrow.

Wednesday, 23 January 2008

in the world

in a world where people are envious but cowardly, it is rather hard to believe things that you hear or see..

i actually believe in an anthropological method called interpretive research where you cannot just believe in what you see or hear people do or say.. you have to understand the context and where he/she come from.. different actions can mean different things.. therefore, i would like to assume that the anonymous person who left a disturbing comment on my last entry just made a mistaken interpretation or maybe even got the wrong person.. using this method i can deduce that he/she has made a comment based on a negative purpose of attempting to disrupt my happy life. i cannot make a conclusion of what this intention is because i do not know of the context. however, i know well enough to know that what was said was mere accusations.

in a world where many forces of vengeance and distraction exist, it is rather hard to stay focus on your own strength, your wants, your needs..

unless.. you have trust and faith in yourself, and the people that matter. also unless, you spend almost every waking hour with your want, your need, your strength... so i think this time the anonymous person has failed to shake me off track. i don't understand why people just have to leave such comments. if what you said were true then prove it. tell me in detail what is it that i should know about. coz i believe there's nuttin that i dunno of. and if your intention is good (the typical reason for intrusion) then tell me who you are and what is your basis for such accusations. but hey i guess you have nuttin.

in a world where lies are in abundance i believe in Him, myself and my love.

call me old-fashioned or conservative or wateva but i believe "sepandai-pandai tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua."

Monday, 21 January 2008

baHhhagia

new year.

new semester.

new modules.

same guy.

same love.

new love.

got everything we want.
tremendously happy with each other.
this seems like a positive start to the semester/year.
in school library with my love by my side doing things we do best.
(apparently not studying at least not now)

i simply love you too much. =)

baHhhagia.

Thursday, 3 January 2008

Retirement

So we had our handover.... It was fun... 3 years.. and now.. study and love.



Thank you.