love is a bad thing

Sometimes I think love is the greatest evil disguised as the ultimate sweetness in life.
Love is like that apple that is so red, shiny and juicy.
The apple that you desire to sink your teeth in but might just kill you.
The wicked witch or queen or stepmom just no longer use the cliche apples anymore.

Falling in love itself sounds like pain, like a misfortune.
But being humans we desire the things that thrills us. That seems forbidden.
Eve took the bite and so will every other girl. Well, every other guy too.

Love is a set up to ensure your heart is full and heavy and vulnerable.
Before one day. some day. it will just be crushed. broken. into pieces.
The littlest cracks will shatter.
Then finally, when that glue wears off and can never be replaced, your heart is left.
shattered. in broken. crushed. pieces.
and it just. kills you.

Only in fairytales the princess live happily ever after with that ONE she loves.
But our lives are not fairytales.
one day. some day. one of us will leave. and the other must live.
i don't know whether i want to be the former or the latter.
i beg that in my fairytale we will leave and then live.
and everything that is left behind will be glued.

you get what i mean?

4 giving

sometimes people flaw.. if God can forgive who are you to be so cruel?
humans are imperfect... God is forgiving but we're not God.

well, come

It's a new day. It's a new life. I'm feeling goooood...

Welcome back dear!

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the (not The) big day

So we got engaged! Yes.. It is real although the feeling is surreal. It was a joyous occasion celebrated with family and closest friends (well most of them).

The parents, especially Mummy, who toiled for the event. My siblings too but they did not have the time to take pictures due to lack of human resources.



The In-laws who dote on me ALOT and have accepted me as a part of their family=)



The extended family and the kids who made the whole day (and many other times of my life) fun and exciting.



The greatest gal friends ever who keep me sane some times, while insane at others.



The dearest Ilsa Babes who are also the greatest and though we hardly see each other we know we have that bond. (Halija missing)



The craziest babes from MS whom I spent almost everyday of my last days in school with and has become great friends to me. (Irma is busy being domesticated in Indo)



The NUS lots who make me feel like I have friends along corridors of Arts and of course Dayah and Zah-zah who has been my friends for a decade.



The incomplete Bardot. Haha.. My bestfriends from BPGHS whom I was lucky enough to bump into to invite and explain my predicaments of invitation limits. (Shahidah missing)



And the lot who fill our (some) fridays/saturdays and some holidays with fun=)

I am blessed with the nicest friends and the most supportive family. I feel loved and happy.
To those who suddenly hear warning bells and feel a sense of panic to make that move... I'm glad we have given you that extra push=)