pondering bout the what ifs..

fairus jasmin suddenly smsed me yesterday.. and then hanan.. thus i concluded they were with each other when he smsed me.. and so i was right.. i think the only reason he smsed is to ask me a question about a certain someone.. and since my reply didnt get to him he used hanan's phone to sms me.. according to hanan he smsed me after lookin at friendster. answered my question of why he would wanna sms me out of the blue.. but he insisted that he just missed me (as a friend) coz i didnt turn up for the gathering.. in his exact words "missed having your nimbly cute fingers msg-ing me" hahahaha... that's new.. i really appreciate your effort fairus.. that's the first.. that somehow made a nice closing to my year..

and well i was just looking at my friends at friendster. and how diff their lives appear to be based on the pictures they have. while mine is simple and quite similar to wat it was but a bit more excitement.. while some others' have changed. while im rather happy, i wonder what theirs are like.. and then i start ed thinking of the what ifs..

1. what if i went to another jc to be with my friends instead of going to nj alone

then i would have been more active in nus now.. coz i have plenty of enthu friends but i wun be the good friend of the current pbm pres.. haha.. i love u maly..

2. what if i had stuck with a certain other group of friends

then i would not have been the Elfareeza many ppl know and somewhat liked.

3. what if i was in a relationship with any of them

then i would have been heartbroken and unhappy. and single and angry..

then i stopped my what ifs and just be grateful for the what i have(s).... coz i realise that i am where i am now.