brink of the bottle

i cant sleep. tmr i'll have a long day. gonna travel all the way to tampines n try make everytin work without the dancers. but newae thats not why i cant slp.

today i saw someone who puts a couple picture for the first time in a long time.. and somehow i dunno how i feel abt it. is this a relief? sense of happiness? or am i worried? or sad? but why? is it bcos im missing my "couplehood" or is it bcos i am je.. but well this couple of weeks have been very trying for me. mebbe im just at the brink of the bottle ready to pour out. cos ive been feeling sad.. ready to cry.. i just need a little poking.. and i'll spill. in fact sometimes it just trickle down the side when wind blows. God give me strength. i wanna be happy. how? it's ok. i'm ok. nvm. i'm fine. No.. We're ok. We're fine. and You're great. ppl shud be happy with wat they have not think that they will be happy with something they want but cannot get.

Maly.. i miss u lah gurl. i need to talk to ppl. just talk and talk and talk. u r like my talking partner. haha.. newae i noe maly's happy... hehehehe...

newae for those who won't be at tampines library on sat pls go down to jurong point (centrestage) to watch my adik sing at the Teen Star competition. good luck boy. altho i wun be there to watch u noe i love u n i'll be supporting u in spirit.. haha..

God.. give me the strength i need.