miss him. miss her. miss you. miss me.

ok im tired.. super duper tired.. but at least losing weight.. hehe.. oh well.. newaes.. i miss him.. i miss friends.. i miss lotsa ppl.. n im sad.. coz i got no time for most things..most things n ppl have no time for me either.. the world is an unfair.. n like i always say.. sumtimes u need to be sad to make others happy.. but i do believe in karma.. so someday all my sadness might just be worthwile..

oh well but i think it's the season for ppl to get together.. im happy for happy ppl.. n im happy to see ppl in matrimony.. ok with inverted comas.. not kahwin lah.. just together.. i mean i am happy when my friends n loved ones are happy.. even if im not .. with myself.. somehow ppl assume i am.. n therefore i have to be.. but the whole point of having ppl around u is not to rub off ur negative vibes lah.. at least dats wat i believe in.. so ya.. i would just smile .. n laugh.. n smile some more.. so the world will be a happier place.... even if its a lie..

im not the explosive kind (accordin to md noor's blog) not quite implosive either.. i just dun like to get angry.. but sumtimes u have no control lah... dats why being childish at times helps.. u tend to be happier dat way.. i think dats y i love children.. coz they have no worries.. like i was in pri sch.. they r a happy lot.. n even if they r not happy it's over silly things.. ok this is based on the normal average family lah.. but u get wat i mean..

newae the coming weeks would be very very trying.. i cant afford days off.. and losing control.. or falling sick.. i need to stay strong till 2nd Sept is over... oh yes publicity...

NUS ILSA TARI will be having our production called AKULTURASI @ UCC, 7.30pm, 1st & 2nd Sept.. tickets @ $12. Get it soon.. tickets are selling fast.. especially the one on saturday..
breathe in.. count to 10.. breathe out

i hope therapy still continues..... but guess not