rainy morning thoughts

it has been raining alot, especially yesterday. got drenched to and from ecp. but worth it when it's for a good cause and with the right people.

well rainy cold mornings make me think more about certain things. especially the mushy lovey dovey stuffs, but i shall try spare some people from those. =.)

i was thinking...
i don't think blogging about the person or people you love a lot makes your blog unintellectual. coz u can actually write about them in a very "chim" way and u will still sound intellectual. in fact.. it will just enhance ur sweetness and many other qualities aside from your intellect.

then i was thinking..
why is i t i havent been having intellectual conversations? here, ppl might refer to these conversation topics as current affairs. maybe, there isnt much to talk about or even blog about? and i think we cant just simply force ourselves to talk about them just to be "intellectual". but i have to admit that i havent been reading the papers regularly like i used to. maybe its because im caught up with other things like events, planning for Ilsa, and mostly.. dates. =.) but that shall not be an excuse. so i am gonna tell myself to read the newspaper more often!

after all those thinking..
it has occurred to me that there has been much political talks amongst the students now. "political" because it is the time of the year where handovers are taking place everywhere in school. what surprises me is how some people try bring others down. i have been observing and hearing those stuffs (not just talking about any particular organisation but more than one). and it happens even between friends. sort of backstabbing rite? i cant stand it. i think doing that just make one appears less of a person to the seniors who are deciding. maybe they are not subtle enough. but maybe they shouldnt even try do that. one should just try proof your worth instead of trying to proof another person's negative traits. maybe they really want positions real bad or maybe they just dont want certain ppl there. hmm.. but oh well... that's life. i didnt think it was like that during my time. rite? i hope.. well.. no offense to anyone but it's just a point i had to talk about. but it's all good. it makes the world more colourful and competitive.

and then.. this is the part where some people shud stop reading..=)
time and again i just realise how much i am happy with faizal. how much he loves me. how much i love him. and it has only been a very short period. maybe everything is wonderful now, u say. but it hasnt been all wonderful. we did go through tough times but we pulled through. here tough times are not just simply arguing. but hey, if it doesnt break you it makes you stronger. i believe. i love the way we go through things in our relationship. how honest we are to each other. and all that. what makes it even more happening for me is how our friends who mattered are happy for us. and we can be ourselves around this group of ppl.

i think when it comes to love, one shouldnt judge about the timing or the person or the circumstances. coz love comes unexpectedly. thus, you shouldnt close your doors. sometimes the person you say you wouldnt be together with is THE one for you. sometimes you dont realise how much you love a person if you choose not to see. i knew i waited too long coz i failed to follow my heart. and the consequences of it only we know. therefore, dont judge people who are finding love now. dont judge how fast or how slow they are going. dont judge the person they choose. dont judge how they are going about getting love. but just be happy for them if they have found love again. =)

i am happy i have found love again.
love you sayang. =.)